Last week marked the beginning of my new job! I have worked in a rehab center as a physical therapist assistant for the past eight years and I have switched to home health. Working at the rehab center was my first job after college. I was so blessed to begin working there right after graduation. I loved it there. The staff, therapy team, and the patients were amazing. I was able to learn so much working there both professionally and personally. However, I had been contemplating switching for a little while. I felt a pull to change. I did not want to because I was comfortable where I was.
I had become almost too comfortable. There isn’t anything wrong with being comfortable in our current season, but I do believe that we can allow ourselves stay too long in our current seasons. I think this can be from either not know what to do next, not wanting to do what’s next, or not realizing it’s time to move on. I was in the situation of comfort and not wanting to move on. I was scared to step out of my comfort zone and do something I was afraid of. Many things were telling me it was time to move on and I just did not wanting to listen. Finally I realized if I wanted my plans to ever come through for my family I would need to make the change. I was terrified. I was leaving something that made sense and was easy. I was pretty happy where I was too. So many people change what they are doing because it makes them unhappy and that makes sense. But what about changing jobs, relationships, and big life decisions that aren’t fully making sense? You just feel it’s the right thing to do. That’s when I believe you have to step out in faith and go for it.
I can’t do it. I used to be so upset by this statement. I like thinking I have everything under control. It made me feel so bad about myself and discouraged about my current situation if I don’t. In the past I didn’t always understand how I was going to deal emotionally with changes in relationships, or how I would financially be able to make it, or how overwhelmed I was with things going on around me. These were different situations and issues that would creep into my life and cause me to become fearful of making bad choices and not being able to handle what was going on. I couldn’t make what wasn’t working work. Then one day I read Proverbs 3:5-6 ‘ Trust in the Lord with all your heart; do not depend on your own understanding. Seek His will in all you do, and He will show you which path to take.’ And there it was, my help. I wasn’t supposed to deal with everything on my own. This is something that made me feel so much better. I realized that if something felt too much for me to deal with it was because it was too much for me to deal with. I believe that God allows us to go through situations sometimes that makes us give up control and allow Him to take over and trust Him fully. I truly try to do this all the time with everything I do now.
The day came when I was supposed to start my new job. I had already been praying A LOT! My nerves had showed up some but overall I wasn’t feeling too nervous about the big day. Until I put my uniform on and was about to leave my house for work. I began to think ‘what are you doing, you can’t do this. How did you honestly think you would be able to make this happen.’ The whole car ride to my new office I keep thinking this and was getting more and more nervous. And then I thought ‘yeah I can’t do this, but God can’. I’m not lying when I say this, I started to feel relief. My nerves didn’t completely go away but I was left with more feelings of excitement actually. I’m still experiencing moments of fear with my new job. And I know that there are more moments to come with work and my personal life as well. But I just remember that I have help.
I would also like to add that I believe God gives us people and situations in our lives that are there to help us through tough times. You never know what His help may arrive as. You may be expecting and praying for one thing and something else shows up. In the words of Garth Brooks ‘some of God greatest gifts are unanswered prays’. (I’m internally giggling for referencing a Garth Brooks song on here.) I like to tell myself to get out of my own way and open myself up to possibilities that I maybe didn’t want to originally consider. This has been the case so many times for me and most of the time it’s the things I didn’t want to consider that have been the wisest decisions. So the next time you find yourself struggling with something don’t go it alone, seek your Help.