I turned 30 recently. I know traditionally this is a milestone that freaks people out. It is weird thinking about being out of my 20’s and moving into a new age bracket. I have to say though, I wasn’t upset about turning 30. It made me feel easy and peaceful transitioning into my next phase. When I reflect upon my 20, especially early 20’s, it seemed chaotic at times. I guess a lot of people feel that way. It’s a time of freedom, adventure, and having experiences. I didn’t feel that way about it though. I sort of felt out of place. I wasn’t running wild like a lot of the others my age but I was trying to. Only it didn’t fit me. I’ve always kind of felt like I didn’t know who I was and that was always kind of challenging for me because I didn’t feel completely comfortable in who I was trying to be. I felt like I could adapt to be a 100 different people. If you ever struggled with personal identity you know what I’m talking about. I didn’t like it because I wasn’t building a solid foundation of who I was completely. I had my moral values sure but I didn’t see that was enough at the time.
Through the latter part of my 20’s I desired to grow spiritually. Through prayer and faith built friendships I started feeling stronger. This is when I felt the pull to start asking how God saw me rather than others do or even myself. Since then I’ve learned that my morals were the foundation of me all along but I couldn’t see that at the time.
I’m not regretful for my 20’s because I learned some major life lessons. I think being so adaptable was necessary to learn for my future self. I can honestly say I’ve been using it a lot recently with all the changes going on in my life. And it’s wonderful. I have had actual aha moments that I recognized a new step in my spiritual journey.
I’ve learned so much from just opening up to the process and looking at myself and the world around me differently. Perspective, I think that’s my biggest take away so far in both the major life events and the mundane everyday happenings.
I’m so thankful for my journey thus far and am feeling blessed about the future come what may. 30 looks bright from where I’m standing.